Silence

What started off as a challenge to myself to *not* announce my pregnancy (with twins – bonus shock points!) on social media became a self-imposed exile from any communication on the blog. Laziness might have played a part. Or being too busy. (Oh, for the days of being too "busy" with only one kid! Ha!) Maybe it was a smug satisfaction with self-control that begat a willful denial of self expression. But eventually, after the twins' arrival, the absence of writing became an almost tangible thing, a mental obstacle that prevented anything from being chronicled outside of my "Mother's Journal" of five lines a day. And even that slip of a book I have problems keeping up.

This post has been percolating in various narrative forms in my head for over a year. I'm a creature of self-control, and even though I'm tempted to labor over self-edits ad infinitum, the fact is, for tonight, this Sunday night ... dinner is eaten, the Olympics are on, and I'm running out of time. So, I'm writing; I'm  publishing. Lula is asleep in Mormor's arms, Nell is lurching forward (army-crawl style – she knows how to crawl but just chooses the easier route?) over Theo's drawings of an Easter train ("It has to be pink! Draw me a pink train; the bunny goes here!"). Theo just ate some soufflé and is playing with Papa. Our time at the condo is ticking away and I want to get something, *anything* down.

I could write about the simultaneous joy and terror of discovering that we were expecting twins: at the six-week ultrasound, after the tech's pronouncement of monochorionic/diamniotic (identical) twins, John's extremities went numb and he started laughing uncontrollably. Or I could talk about the complete and utter normalcy of my pregnancy's progression, punctuated with numerous false scares and an eventual switch to a new OB/GYN (yeah ... maybe that's a topic that deserves its own post).

Or maybe I'll just leave here a promise to eventually capture more than a sketch of this crazy reality ... plus a few photos.

Hey, family and friends. Thanks for reading. We really appreciate it.

I'll write soon.

Photo credit: Grace Wilson (Sweet Pea Photography)